WHY?

Why,i looked at my photo when i was so young

i stood beside my parents

i'm still see they were love,but now it's not

my tear is flowing and my face is so red

i want to stop thinking of it,i'm really sad

i don't want to come back to that home in phayathai again

how shall i do?i ask myself

but he is my dad! although i think he is hurt my mom so much

i look at myself and think of my mom and my dad

they are still in my mind,i don't want to leave this home

my hand ,there r those photoes in my hand

my tears is over it now

Today i'm not happy,i'm sorry junjie

when i asked me whether i was happy

i was so surprising,how do u know my feeling that time?

i want to hug u tighhtly that time,i want,,,,really want my love....

i ran and ran.....went to my farm

i want to see my parent be together here,

that girl,a new one who my dad loves,i'm trying to get along with her

my mood is not still,if everyman in this world behave as my dad

i don't want to have love!

i'm afriad.....today my mom goes out to stay at farm

i hugged her and said i love her

i said to her i would take care home and grandma

she smiled to me,i was nearly cry

i kept those photoes ,and go on thinking of my dad

so worried!

i'm thinking of junjie,feel so worried

i felt so bad today,my mom has a fever and i have to c b lonely

during the way to home,i felt so worried,and i asked driver to drive faster

junjie,from right now,i'll ask u to sleep early and make u happy

i won't let u down,my love,i hope we can get together ,

i know it's matter in the future,but i promise i'll take care of you from all of my heart

You r so important,

it's happend already,i'm happy that i know i'm the one who u want to share and talk

everyday,everynight,the time is passing,

Are you happy nowadays?

To be your love,i'm so happy junjie

For me,plz take care!

Jib love Junjie so much

Can u feel this?no matter what happens, u're always in my heart,

junjie,junjie,junjie........

some of my photo from my facebook's profile

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this little feeling

I have arrived my dad's home

i missed my home,want to cook for everyone

but i know everyone don't want me to cook here

i'm just little girl,they don't believe it!

i felt so boring

that boys said he wants to know my real name

i looked at him and told him,he laugh!

i know my real name is beautiful,right?

meanwhile,i walk around home and i saw servants,

at first i thought they were his friend,

they wear a nice cloth! and i didn't believe my dad when he said they were servants

i choose the best room of home

so comfortable,but i miss my mom

i qill stay here for 1 month,how much boring i have to face!

anyhow,i hope i can improve my chinese these days

i think of laoshi ,dongfanyi,it's his name

he is so famous in bkk,so many student want to be his student

have a nice day junjie

i'm also miss u

the Dogwood

To the sky you reach out your hand

The songs of the clouds

Call you to distant lands

To the wind you call my name

Carried to the shore

The shore where I wait

A dogwood flow'r, I'd give to you

A blossom then, soon come to bloom

May the dreams you hold

The dreams that shine like rosen gold

Last forever

I wish for you to shine above

To radiate your endless love

May it last a hundred years from now

Summer heat weighing down on us

This boat is too weak and so in me, please trust

I will follow you

Please go ahead and I will be there soon

A dogwood flow'r, I'd give to you

A blossom then, soon come to bloom

my photo 19/9/10

cried

i'm cried so lots,i just finished reading emails that junjie sent to me on msn mail box

so in love,and i thoguht of him,i listened a song that he liked last year

i notice everymail he said "yours" ir" love you"or "miss u"

hehe,i smiled,i hope everything not be changed

junjie.....my lovely boyfriend...hug u

who is stand in your heart?

I'm lying on the bed in a morning

i can see birds out the window

i sit on the bed and look through the window

i miss someone,

are there anything i have forgotten?

things that i have forgotten is already flow

but nowadays is so important,i want to know if the time will pass 10 years,

are we still love each other,you said we'll be changed,i know ... and everyone is surely changed too

i want to keep this feeling in my heart forever

in fact,i'm a girl who trys to be change,am i?

when i sit on a car of my dad,i saw a glasses of lady is in his car,i know

i looked at him while he was driving,i didn't want to ask him about it

i felt boring with my dad,and i know i'm a bad girl

however i am still love him so much,and my mom,

she is always take care me,i aid to her that i would do my best in exam

and she smiled at me,i was nearly cry

the way to school is not too long,i drove motorbike and i thought of my parents again,

i wish they would be together,

i'm so tired now,looking forward to talk with junjie

Last year

i was lying on the bed in a evening,i look out the window,

i saw flowers,it's always bloom this time every year

i thought of last year,a place where i used to,

i love all of tress at home,although i have to time to water it everyday

but my grandma do it instead,

i want to know whether i can stop this time,

i want to plant more next time

on the other side,i though of future

my little seed,it's become big tree now,

i feel surprised

i hope a new tree is grow up soon

where is my father?

when i talk with you tonight,i feel calm

although my heart is so sad.

junjie,i want to hug u ,i have you,i won't feel sad

looking at my mom.i lover her so much,she asked me about my homeworks,

i want to ask her where my dad is,i hope my dad will be happy

i won't call him,even though i 'm really want to hear his voice

...

i found my photo when i was young,i'm not sure how old ,

about 4 or 5 years...is it innocent??