Changed?

I'm not sure about my mind just now,i'm so weak and i feel i have no courange to step again
lying on the bed and had woken up ,i turn my clock to other times.i wonder and confused
i had read mails of you and i felt so sad,i want to turn back the time now,maybe i won't be hurt like this ,on the other hands,i felt so glad about your life,i found you have got a new life there,if one day u will say u no longer wait for me,it's so simple,it may hust and pain,but what can i do that time?Sometime i even thought we may can not be together at last,eveything made me so serious,i got a headache,and i was going to sleep again,or my mind is changed,or your mind is changed,i'm so afriad,
i don't wish to face such a condition,nowadays,i'm only wish u will be happy for the life,although u have not m one day,i know u can step up happily,and i know and understand,no matter what happens,i'll be still follow my dream,my bright dream,
I'm still want to be that one,who u can share everything,even though i'm not the best for u,
For today i'm still step into the new light,
despite my dream is not clear