am i too bad?

tonight u asked me whether i loved u.u don't believe in me,and u said i'm always forgot sth.i think i'm always wrong to u.i'm such a bad girl,will u know that i'm also sad,everynight u sleep early,before i sleep.so i have to be alone by having nothing to do,but i understand,u care your health so much.it's good to take care yourself.although u said u're sleepy or tired.u said u love me so much.we talked about our future again and again,i don't know to do,i feel i have no energy to study if u're not here.if i can enter a good university here but u can't live here.what will i live for?i want to cry again,i want to be die,if i have no you,i can't continue studying ,will u know that i'm so care u,although i'm always wrong,i'm always not perfect,but i'm just a girl.what do u want from me?last two year,how much i loved u,this time i'm still love u as that time,i never thought we'll change our mind easily,i want to strengthen our love,although we know it's weak.i wrote about u on my notebook,my friends are around me,annoy me.i shut out and say i want to be alone,they may angry with me now,i'm really bad to everyone,i hate myself more and more,the more i hate myself,the more i want to die,.i have to sleep now,even i can't sleep well again tonight.